'The Tibetan monks make [mandalas] out of dyed sand laid out into big, beautiful designs. And when they’re done, after days or weeks of work, they wipe it all away. Try to look at your experience here as a mandala, Chapman. Work hard to make something as meaningful and beautiful as you can. And when you’re done, pack it in and know it was all temporary. You have to remember that. It’s all temporary. Surviving here is all about perspective.'
Orange Is The New Black
Orange Is The New Black: it's the reason for my recent blogosphere absence... Well, that and the whole new baby thing. If you didn't already know, or let's say you're an idiot, this infant thing is exponentially harder when also chasing a toddler around the house.
Anyways, if you have access to streaming Netflix, waste no further time reading this entry. Grab some snacks, find this show (Netflix original series, just released) and go ahead and kill the rest of the day watching it. You have my permission. I'll even write you a (PT) doctor's note if necessary.
Oh, you're still here? Well, I will do my best to comfort you in your time away from the television.
That's a lie. Instead I will lecture those of you who aren't willing to spend eight bucks a month on what I am beginning to think of as a household necessity. Those geniuses over at Netflix even give you a 30 day free trial. I can only assume the marketing department is chalk full of ex-drug dealers (the first one's free!). It's not at all a wonder that these people have single-handedly taken out the business of video rental. RIP Blockbuster!
And don't you dare tell me that you 'don't watch TV'. People who say that are either assholes, liars, or both.
Now, I will go ahead and assume it's been three days and you're just now coming up for air and human contact, returned to this post and are dying to get my take on the show.
I won't get into too many specifics about this show (created by the creator of Weeds...who apparently has a thing for strong female characters living outside the law) other than to comment on it's sheer brilliance at times, especially in it's writing. The quote I posted above about everything being temporary hit me like a Mack Truck and resonated so perfectly that I had to transcribe it, commit it to memory, and spend an hour yammering on about it to you fine folks.
I tell ya, it's nearly enough to send me traipsing into the Himalayas to hang with the monks and get my life figured out. Or maybe the first part of that quote is BS and the people I really need to see are the writers over at Orange Is The New Black.
Whatever the case, it got me thinking about how all of life's moments are so very brief and fleeting. Next to death and taxes, it may be the only thing you can really count on in this world.
These sleepless nights? They'll be a distant memory in a year.
The crazy unfocused and (I swear!) skeptical glances I get from little man #2? They'll soon morph into bright smiles and the toddler giggles I can't seem to get enough of.
Being trapped on my couch by paralyzing fear of the logistics necessary for transporting two fragile, non-ambulatory and non-verbal little people without backup? Well, that business will pass eventually as well.
The chipmunk squeals and chirps of my littlest guy? Soon enough, they'll become babbles and crocodile tears reserved for use in response to the word 'no'.
The seemingly endless pumping and nursing? Even that will end.
(And boy will those extra calories be missed!)
Like those crazy Tibetan monks, I know I should work hard to make these days as beautiful and meaningful as possible even though these delicate moments are only temporary. It's hard to remember that goal when half the day is passed chasing and feeding and entertaining and cleaning before I realize I should maybe get dressed.
The challenges of this crazy life we've chosen are all just temporary stepping stones to the next thing...which will disappear just as quickly.
Thanks Netflix. Your wisdom has brought me new prospective, wisdom, and countless hours of round the clock entertainment during this elastic pants, sleep-deprived, hermit-period of mommy-hood.